Lifestyle change

So I decided to make a positive change in my lifestyle. After having my 2 sons, I gained 40lbs. majority came with my oldest son. When I was pregnant with my oldest son, my mother passed away. Instead of crying I turned to food. Food became my crutch. Whenever I would think of my mother, I would trun to food. My favorite was a chocolate shake from Baskin Robbins.

After having my son, my once size 3 133lbs was replaced with a size 12. I didn't care because I felt as if life was not the same. My best friend was gone for good. I missed our phone calls and just being together. Up until then I had know idea what a food addiction was. I was truly addicted and needed help.

I decided to join a medically supervised weight loss program through my hospital. I did not like people asking me if I was pregnant. A good friend whom had lost her mother also became my confidant and talked to me about getting myself togethet. I program was excellent. I learned techniques to deal with my addiction. I began drinking more water, eating or shall I say snacking less, and exercising. After 20weeks on the program, I lost 20lbs and was elated.  A month later, I was pregnant with my second son. I could no longer survive off of 1000 calories or less a day and  had to eat more if I wanted a healthy baby. I tried to make healthy choices and limit my snacking. I continued to workout but informed the lady of my condition. 23 weeks into my pregnancy my water broke and I was hospitalized until I delivered my son. My son was born at 25weeks 5 days and he was 2lbs 5 oz. Once again depression takes over and I began eating uncontrollably again. I wasn't able to take my baby home with me. Food became my baby. I ate to relieve the pain of not having my baby with me. I didn't want to alarm my family so I just ate instead of talking about my feelings. Being a size 3 was the furthest from my mine.

I continued on this downward spiral until I saw a picture of myself and I looked horrible. My stomach was huge I looked maybe five months pregnant. Disgusted, I pulled out my notebook that I obtained from the weight loss program and began following the guidelines. Several of my co-workers and I started walking during lunch time. I was feeling great. My jeans began to fit loose and I was in a size 8. However, all things came to and end once summer vacation began. I no longer had my walking buddies with me and my old jeans began to fit again.

Upset with myself, I decided that I had to make a drastic change not only for myself but for my 3 children. I purchased an elliptical machine and began eating salads everyday for lunch. Jeans started getting loose again. I was determined to stay motivated this summer so I adopted a motivation buddy. Between the two of us we started researching and looking into detox programs and making healthier choices. Oh I forgot to mention for lent I decided to give up chicken and turkey (I gave up pork and beef 19 and 18 yrs ago). I felt so good. Together my cousin (motivation buddy) and I started detoxing and making better choices. We both completed a 7 day diva detox. At the end of the program, I lost 10lbs.

Now I have a green smoothies everyday for breakfast, either a large green or fruit salad for lunch, and a modest dinner. I still feel myself releasing weight and I need a belt for my jeans now. My children are even eating healthier. I keep my refrigerator stock with fruit and vegetables. If my children want a snack, I have a cabinet full of healthy snacks. My children even like drinking green smoothies with me.